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Dawn -- My scars are all self-inflicted. I was going through a period when I was a teenager and I lost my grandfather, and I was very angry and confused. And rather than take my anger out on anybody else, I chose to take it out on myself. It took several years and some counseling sessions but I finally overcame. I finally learned to deal with people coming and going in your life. He was like that one person that you think all your life he’s always gonna be there for me, and when I get old he’ll see me get married and see my children, and I didn’t understand why he wasn’t gonna be there for that. I know he’s not here physically, but is spiritually, and will always be with me. It went on for about eight years, 'til I was about 23 or 24 years old... with cigarettes, razor blades. I wore long-sleeved shirts for a long time to hide it from my family, and then at one point it got really, really, bad when my father had noticed them, and seeing him cry, and seeing what I was doing to other people, I had to stop. I don’t necessarily think I was screaming out for help or screaming out for attention 'cause for years and years nobody knew. I think it was just my own way of dealing with it and allowing myself to feel pain, 'cause I didn’t cry. I didn’t cry for years. It’s always gonna be there. It’s always a reminder. Like some people get tattoos. Why do you get those? 'Cause there’s something significant at that point and time in your life, and you remember it, and you mark it with something. It’s always a daily reminder. It makes you appreciate where you are now and what you have now. The fact that you even walk around and breath and pay your taxes.