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Kathleen Shurkin ---- I was just really depressed for a period of time. I started cutting myself in ninth grade. I used a utility knife, like, a carpet cutter. I don’t really know why I did it, but it was just like a lot of times I would just cut myself because I would feel really empty and I just wanted to feel something. I knew that I was still, like, real, but a lot of times I would end up just cutting really deep, and I wouldn’t feel anything, and it would make me angry. The only reason why I stopped doing that was because I was tired of cleaning up the blood. My parents didn’t find out until, like, a year and a half after I started doing it, so now I’m on antidepressants. They want me to go into counseling, but I don’t feel that that is necessary. I don't feel better on antidepressants. No, not at all. When I’m off of them I go insane, like, literally go insane. But I don’t feel like they do anything. Like my main thing is: I was really suicidal for a while, like, I felt my life was really pointless, and the only thing that really saved me from that was music. So, like, now, you know, music is my life. I didn’t have friends until last year, so that could have been it. I was really lonely. People ask me if I got scratched by an animal, or where I got those, and I just tell them they're self-inflicted, and they just look at me like, oh, okay. I’ve always been really pessimistic. It’s just something I’ve always had but, as I said, I’m trying to get my band somewhere, trying to do something with that, and hopefully that will work.